What are we? In our external lives we are everything possible, and not just what we really are. We all have a longing down in our inner depths. A craving for something that is so remote from our current lives that we are barely able to express it in words. Sometimes we are very close to this “Something”. Then in a moment when we are able to leave our daily routine behind us, a feeling suddenly breaks through, gives us a perspective of something so fantastic that we would give up everything if we could only reach it.
To be able to reach that point without a location, to be able to reach that state and live it in its full intensity would be the fulfilment that outshines everything that we know. Actually, this esoteric world that every now and again grants us a minuscule insight into itself is what the founders of the major religions called Paradise. However, the feeling of absolute joy and emotional security, the infinite, all-encompassing vastness, is probably not a place in the Afterlife at all, not a Paradise that is marked somewhere on the religious and spiritual maps. It really isn’t so far away, so unreachable, so impalpable. It is probably a part of ourselves. Probably even our most important part – our true Self.
If we start from the depth of knowledge of the Chinese Tao, or from the insights described in the ancient Vedas and Upanishads, then this fantastic “Something” is not even just the essence of ourselves, but the essence of everything that exists.
It is simply that we have allowed our lives, our time, to be filled with everything possible, that obscures our view of the true nature of ourselves. Our life, or more tangibly, our time no longer belongs to us. It belongs to our commitments, our superficial wishes and our problems.
When we speak of “ourselves”, then that initially means, in an entirely pragmatic sense, “our consciousness” and so everything that we sense. Ultimately our “Self” is our life or our time. But we long ago lost control over our time and so live our obligations, rather than ourselves. We live our problems, our efforts to achieve a certain status. We live our clichés.
Time is mine! is not intended as an affirmation that we have now barred the door to our time to the superficialities that determine our lives. Time is mine! is a maxim for the project of recapturing our own time, our consciousness and thus our self. The aim would be to reveal what we truly are, cleansed of all the superficial baggage. Our time should be dominated by our Self, not by external circumstances. But we should avoid the mistake of wanting to change our inner life with changes to the outer. It is more effective to work the other way around. If we make changes internally, the external will automatically follow. We change ourselves when we take back our time. In the most important space that we possess – in our consciousness – it should be ourselves that rule. Not the daily routine. Because this is the space in which our lives play out!